O God, You are my God; with deepest longing I will seek You; My soul [my life, my very self] thirsts for You, my flesh longs and sighs for You, In a dry and weary land where there is no water. Psalm 63:1
This was the cry of David, this to me is one of the deepest prayers prayed by a man in the Bible and it really got me thinking. David wasn’t in his palace when he prayed this prayer, he was in the wilderness of Judaea where he was hiding from his son Absalom who was trying to kill him. let me quickly explain what a wilderness is. It is an uncultivated, uninhabited, and inhospitable region, It is also called no mans land. As I began to read this verse, I started imagining what this wilderness was like. No food, no water, wild animals, harsh weather conditions e.t.c after imagining I asked myself, what would anyone who found themselves in this situation do naturally? in fact what would I do if I found myself in this situation?
1. I would be so angry at God for allowing me to be in that situation in the first place, why would he abandon me like that?
2. I would freak out.
3. As my natural instinct gradually sinks in, I would begin to look for ways to get me anything I can eat and water to drink because I need this two things to survive.
4. When I remember there are wild animals and any one of them might just be at the corner monitoring me and probably thanking God for bringing this delicious meal their way, at this point i have lost hope already.
5. To summarize all of this points i would just wait for the worst to happen or better still God just kill me.
Why Did I list all of this points? that is because we are humans and it is natural for us to react in a certain kind of way when we are under pressure, But God wants us to learn to trust him. I am sure David had his fears, he wasn’t ready to die ( no one is ever ready) and in his case his son was the one who sought for his life. But through all of this trials David’s first word was oh God you are my God. You see while I was saying I would be angry at God David was busy acknowledging that There is a God and that God is his God,He trusted God so much that even in the wilderness God was with him and the fact that he was in a dilemma did not make God less of God.
Instead of seeking for water, food, a way to sleep and how to keep the wild animals away, this Man was saying God you are the one I seek, you are the one I crave for, you are the one my soul and my flesh longs for, even when I have no water God that doesn’t mean anything to me because you are the living water and it’s either you or nothing else!!!
You see this was a king who wasn’t thinking of how to get back at his enemy, he wasn’t praying for God to kill his enemy his greatest need was God.
At this point I had to sincerely ask myself and I think we all should pause and ask ourselves is God my greatest need? Is My need for God seasonal? Do I acknowledge him as God even when it Doesn’t make sense? Do I sincerely hunger and thirst for Him? If I have everything will I still need Him? Is God my only option or do I have other options?
Just this weekend I was talking to a friend and we had a conversation of how some people write songs and when you listen to it, you don’t want to stop listening because it just ministers to your spirit, that song automatically becomes a prayer and I realized some of this songwriters didn’t get to this point by having a relationship with God based on their terms, they literally just say God take all of me, and do as you please. And until i get to that point where I don’t want to serve God based on my terms, there is nothing He can do. God is willing to pour out himself freely on those who are willing to freely let him have his way in them.
So I have gazed upon You in the sanctuary, To see Your power and Your glory. Because Your lovingkindness is better than life, My lips shall praise You. So will I bless You as long as I live; I will lift up my hands in Your name. My soul [my life, my very self] is satisfied as with marrow and fatness, And my mouth offers praises [to You] with joyful lips. When I remember You on my bed, I meditate and thoughtfully focus on You in the night watches, For You have been my help, And in the shadow of Your wings [where I am always protected] I sing for joy. My soul [my life, my very self] clings to You; Your right hand upholds me. Psalm 63:2-8
We can’t need God this much if we trust in our own strength because our flesh and strength will always fail us, so why don’t you ask the one who is capable of upholding you and drawing you to himself to help you? God is always ready to receive us to himself but He can’t do that without your permission, you need to allow him takeover.
Have an amazing week ahead